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[02 Jul 2005|11:55am] |
Daytona was an amazing trip. I had drifted so much from God last year. I won't let that happen again. Everything is so much better when God is in my life.
When the music fades
All is stripped away
And I simply come
Longing just to bring
Something that's of worth
That will bless Your heart
I'll bring You more than a song
For a song in itself
Is not what You have required
You search much deeper within
Through the way things appear
You're looking into my heart
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| I thought about you today. |
[19 Jun 2005|02:24pm] |
Yeah I was just thinking why i made my journal with a 666 at the end. Oh well, I don't even understand how i was back then.. Things sure have changed. I would like to say how much I love my amazing friends. Kenzie and Karyn made my birthday a blast, stephanie, matt, all the guys that hang out with me. Awesome. And my brother. He awesome too. The amazing lunch table I had last year, all my friends/exes who still talk to me even after I make a mistake and a fight starts. Amazing. Just, amazing. Thanks guys.
Most recent poetry..
He was all she wanted
And maybe some more
From all she had seen
It was more than before
She seemed so different
She seemed so real
But under her skin
It did not appeal
But this guy should have known
That it wouldn't last
This girl was haunted
By her frightening past
He wasn't surprised
By those tears she cried
Bring out the coffin
Somebody's died
He wanted a lover
Not someone to use
He wanted a girl
That he would never lose
She wanted a guy
That could show her the way
That could make her happy
A way she could stay
He wasn't surprised
By those tears she cried
Bring out the coffin
Somebody's died
He gave her his heart
And with it a kiss
He knew it was something
He may someday miss
This girl had changed
Not the same as before
He wanted to love her
But these things, he couldn't ignore
He wasn't surprised
By those tears she cried
Bring out the coffin
Somebody's died
She brushed away her hair
And looked at the ground
Eye contact was lost
There was no sound
She left him in the gutter
And with not a moment to spare
She picked up another guy
To show how much she cared
He wasn't surprised
By those tears she cried
Bring out the coffin
Somebody's died
There was not turning back
There was nothing to do
She'd made a mistake
And they both knew
The girl left that night
Took with her a knife
This beautiful girl
Gave away her life
He was at first shocked
It took years to see
She was just another girl
Influenced by society
Read the xanga. ( http://www.xanga.com/fade_to_black66 )
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[30 May 2005|11:08pm] |
Hahah. NO ONE will read this. Livejournal is dead. X_X oh well no one seems to listen to me about anything else anyway..
gosh life actually kinda SUCKS right now.. =)
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| im back... |
[07 Mar 2005|01:54pm] |
yeah im back and just thoguht i'd see how things are over here. well me and nikki are no longer an item... but thats okay. anyway, i went to disciple now, and it was pretty cool, but now, i am bored because i have nothin to do!! the ring two comes out in two fridays! yay i cant wait to see it,
666- borhter typed that
well i gotta go now
666ja6ke
(brother attacking keyboard..heafefowe)
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[28 Jan 2005|11:23pm] |
I have been ignorin LJ lately... oops. If you wanna read more betterer posts from the jakester you can refer to my xanga at www.xanga.com/fade_to_black66
latetr,
-jake
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[21 Jan 2005|10:47pm] |
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BOY: i SAW HER TODAY
GiRL: i SAW HiM TODAY
BOY: iT SEEMS LiKE iT`S BEEN FOREVER
GiRL: i WONDER iF HE STiLL CARES
BOY: SHE LOOKS BETTER THEN BEFORE
GiRL: i COULDN`T STOP STARiNG AT HiM
BOY: i ASKED HER HOW THiNGS WERE GOiNG
GiRL: i ASKED ABOUT HiS NEW GiRLFRiEND
BOY: i`D CHOOSE HER OVER ANY GiRL i`M WiTH
GiRL: HE`S PROBABLY REALLY HAPPY RiGHT NOW
BOY: i COULDN`T LOOK AT HER WiTHOUT STARTiNG TO WANT HER BACK
GiRL: HE COULDN`T EVEN LOOK AT ME
BOY: i TOLD HER i MiSS HER
GiRL: HE DOSEN`T MEAN iT
BOY: i MEANT iT
GiRL: HE DiDN`T MEAN iT
BOY: i LOVE HER
GiRL: HE LOVES HiS NEW GiRLFRiEND
BOY: i HELD HER FOR THE LAST TiME
GiRL: HE GAVE ME A FRiENDLY HUG
BOY: THEN i WENT HOME AND I COULDNT STOP THINKING ABOUT HER
GiRL: THEN i WENT HOME AND CRiED
BOY: i LOST HER
GiRL: i STiLL LOVE HIM
Aw girls and guys think so much differently.
( I didnt write that)
-JAKE
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[09 Jan 2005|09:23am] |
Thanks for wishing me luck everyone! Y'all are awesome! Anyway, I bruoght my time down in the 50 freestyle and 100 backstroke, and now im just like half a second from qualifying for county! Dang I'm so close...!
-jake
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[08 Jan 2005|01:26pm] |
It sucks that you can't put music on Livejournal.
Anyway, I have a meet tonight, so wish me luck!
-jake
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| New Schdules... yay. |
[05 Jan 2005|03:29pm] |
Today was great. I was really scared that I was going to get a schedule that i hated, but overall it's good. Well heres my schedule:
1st- Mr Kiep AP Geography, I have this 1st again, and I just talk with some chicks that sit next to me that are nice.
2nd- I HAVE SCIENCE WITH MATT! OMG OMG YES! (lol that sounded like an orgasm or something) Anyway its so awesome! Also I have Garrick! YEEEEY! and Maggie! w00t. this class will be effin awesome!
3rd- Language Arts, well I dont have any good friends in here, but I sit behind Brandon so I talk to him, and next to Alyssa so I takl to her. I have a Weird teacher though. She cant use the left half of her body..
4th- Health, Maggie is in this class so that will make it interesting!
5th- Spanish, coach reshauaual. This is the only class that I REALLY don't like, because I dont even KNOW any poeple in there. I guess I'll have to make some new friedns... =(
6th- Geometry with mrs driscoll again... but rachael will be in there!! YAY!
well i like everything except 5th period, and i have NO FRIENDS in that lunch. IS ANYONE IN 3rd LUNCH??
<3Jake
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| The Essential 99 of 2004 |
[03 Jan 2005|01:18pm] |
99x's essential 99 songs of 2004.. I dont agree with #1 though.
BOLD songs are Jake-approved (I really liked it)
CROSSED OUT songs are songs I didn't like
99. The Fire Theft "Chain"
98. Kasabian "Clubfoot"
97. 3 Doors Down "Here Without You"
96. The Cure "Alt. End"
95. N.E.R.D. "She Wants To Move"
94. Papa Roach "Scars"
93. Incubus "Message In A Bottle"
92. Social Distortion "Reach For The Sky"
91. Linkin Park/DJ "Numb/Encore"(the original was good)
90. Scissor Sisters "Take Your Mama"
89. Dog Die In Hot Cars "I Love You Cause I Have To"
88. Coheed & Cambria "Blood Red Summer"
87. Green Day/Oasis "Boulevard Of Broken Songs"
86. Story Of The Year "Anthem Of Our Dying Day"
85. Jet "Roll Over DJ"
84. The Living End "Who's Gonna Save Us"
83. Sahara Hot Nights "Hot Night Crash"
82. Trapt "Echo"
81. New Found Glory "All Down Hill From Here"
80. Collective Soul "Counting The Days"
79. The Shins "New Slang"
78. The Thrills "One Horse Town"
77. The Music "Breakin'"
76. Butch Walker "Mix Tape"
75. The Raveonettes "That Great Love Sound"
74. Switchfoot "Dare You To Move"
73. Morrissey "Irish Blood, English Heart"
72. Korn "Word Up"
71. Puddle Of Mudd "Heel Over Head"
70. Hoobastank "Same Direction"
69. Five-Eight "I'm Still Around"
68. Cypress Hill "What's Your Number"
67. The Cure "The End Of The World"
66. The Strokes "The End Has No End"
65. Polyphonic Spree "Light And Day"
64. The White Stripes "I Just Don't Know What To Do"
63. Gary Jules "Mad World"
62. Muse "Hysteria"
61. Coheed & Cambria "A Favor House Atlantic"
60. Jet "Look What You've Done"
59. Beastie Boys "Right Right Now Now"
58. Franz Ferdinand "This Fire"
57. The Donnas "Fall Behind Me"
56. Chevelle "Vitamin R"
55. The Streets/Chris Martin "Dry Your Eyes"
54. Offspring "I Can't Get My Head Around You"
53. Damien Rice "Volcano"
52. Interpol "Slow Hands"
51. Lost Prophets "Last Train Home"
50. Jem "They"
49. Cake "No Phone"
48. Slipnot "Duality"
47. The Hives "Walk Idiot Walk"
46. Auf Der Maur "Follwed The Waves"
45. A Perfect Circle "Weak And Powerless"
44. Morrissey "First Of The Gang To Die"
43. Good Charlotte "Predictable"
42. Modest Mouse "Ocean Breaths Salty"
41. Keane "Somewhere Only We Know"
40. Blink 182 "Down"
39. Incubus "Talks Shows On Mute"
38. Muse "Time Is Running Out"
37. Strokes "Reptillia"
36. Linkin Park "Lying From You"
35. Yeah Yeah Yeah "Maps"
34. Taking Back Sunday "A Decade Under The Influence"
33. Snow Patrol "Run"
32. Three Days Grace "Just Like You"
31. 311 "First Straw"
30. Jimmy Eat World "Pain"
29. Yellowcard "Ocean Avenue"(this is their only song I dont like)
28. Beastie Boys "Triple Trouble"
27. Offspring "Hit That"
26. R.E.M. "Leaving New York"
25. The Killers "Mr. Brightside"
24. Blink 182 "Feeling This"
23. Linkin Park "Faint"
22. Story Of The Year "Until The Day I Die"
21. Breaking Benjamin "So Cold"
20. The Darkness "I Believe In A Thing Called Love"(weird song)
19 Three Days Grace "I Hate Everything About You"
18. Incubus "Megalomaniac"
17. Jet "Cold Hard Bitch"
16. Velvet Revolver "Slither"
15. Green Day "American Idiot"
14. Seether/Amy "Broken"
13. Dashboard Conf "Vindicated"
12. Blink 182 "I Miss You"
11. Linkin Park "Breaking The Habit
10. 311 "Love Song"
9. Beastie Boys "Ch-Check It Out"
8. Hoobastank "The Reason"
7. Jet "Are You Gonna Be My Girl"
6. Velvet Revolver "Fall To Pieces"
5. U2 "Vertigo"
4. Franz Ferdinand "Take Me Out"
3. Modest Mouse "Float On"
2. The Killers "Somebody Told Me"
1. Green Day "Boulevard Of Broken Dreams" (WTF)
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| Okay I need to rant about something. |
[01 Jan 2005|11:38pm] |
This is from a guys point of view. I HATE it when girls say they are ugly! Oh my friggin gawd! It makes me so mad when a pretty girl tells me she doesnt think she looks good, or she doesnt like something about her, or when she shows me her school pictures she says that they look horrible. Okay, I know that there are no guys that read this, but if I had any friends on LiveJournal that were guys they would friggin agree with me on this one. We dont want you to think that your ugly because if anything, that would be a turn-off. I like a girl that is self confident and knows she isnt ugly! Geezus.
By the way, all the girls I know are Beautiful.
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| It was on kenzies LJ, and it seems like everyone is doing surveys lately, so here you go. |
[01 Jan 2005|03:20pm] |
The Generic Teenager Stereotype
Do you drink [alcohol]?: no
Do you party a lot? How often?: no
Do you use drugs for recreational purposes?: no
How often do you use the word like in an average hour?: I'm a guy, I use it the average amount.
Do you skip classes? How often?: no
Do you have casual sex? Protected?: NO I'm 14
Do you steal?: no
Do you wear inappropriate clothing?: no
Do you drool over celebrities?: no
Do you watch a lot of TV?: no
Do you ever watch the News?: yup
Do you even care about world issues?: yes
Do you read books often?: no, never unless its for school or harry potter
Are you failing a lot of your classes?: nope, none
Do you spend most of your time with your friends?: yeah, and family
Do you smoke cigarettes?: no
Do you hang out a lot in malls, or at Seven Elevens?: mall: yes, 7-11: no
Do you often find yourself with a crush on someone?: no, I usually wait for someone I can actually see myself with, instead of jumping into a relationship.
Do you curse a lot?: ive slowed down on that. im much better now
Are you desperate to fit in?: no i like bein myself
Are you intelligent?: yes, and not just academically. I have common sense, and reason.
The Goth Stereotype
Black lipstick?: no
Black eyeliner?: one time
Black eyeshadow?: no
Black trenchcoat?: nope, i ahve a black hoody, but it aint gothy
Black boots?: no
Black fishnets?: no
Cigarettes?: no, again.
Heavy metal music?: sometimes
Marilyn Manson?: maybe, probably because i hear him all the time in my bros car!
Kittie?:idk
Cradle of Filth?: idk
Constant frown and perpetual angst?: yeah, unless I'm around friends and sometimes family.
Are you an intellectual?: yes
An atheist?: no
Horrible home life?: I dont get alogn with my parents very well, but it could be worse.
Hopelessly depressed?: nope, but I have mood swings a lot. I'm depressed the average amount.
Suffering with suicidal idealations?: no
Self-mutilation?: no
The Punk Stereotype
Plaid?: no
Big black boots?: no
Mohawk?: haha that would be cool
Excessive piercings? [Especially facial]: nope, i used to want them in my ears
Loud, confident and opinionated?: no
Wild hair colors?: no
NOFX?: yes!
Rancid?: yes!
The Jock Stereotype
What's your IQ?: im not exactly sure, but I'd say its pretty high
Do you watch a lot of sports?: no
Play a lot of sports?: yes
Talk a lot about sports?: no
Do you do anything, but think about sports?: yes
Are you arrogant?: no
Are you a male or female whore?: no
Are you homophobic?: yes, a little
Do you tease other people a lot because you want to seem confident?: no
But really you're a quivering mass of insecurity?: no!!
Boobs = i dont have any, which is a good thing
Parties = not really. I'm not a big partier
Dropping out of high school and flipping burgers = yes?: no -.-
This Or That
Originality or Acceptance?: originality
Independence or Companionship?: companionship
Stability or Freedom?: freedom
Personal or Interpersonal?: interpersonal
Introvert or Extrovert? extrovert
Popularity or Isolation?: NEITHER
Unique or Loved?: BOTH
Understood or Individual?: individual
You or Them?: you
Boyfriend/girlfriend: nope
Crush: nope
Do you love anyone right now: yes, but not the way your asking
Have you ever been in love: yes, and I always will be
Ever really cared for someone in that way: yes and no
Ever had sex: no
How many hearts have you broken: i dont think any
How many people broke your heart: 4 or 5
So what's your significant other like: who?
Do you go more by looks or personality: personality first, but i have standards for looks, yet they may be low.
Ever kiss a friend: no
Are you still friends: who?
Do you smoke: no, again!
weed: no
Prefer beer or liquor: never had liquor, and im not a big alcohol fan
WOULD YOU EVER
bungee jump: yes
Skydive: maybe
Swim with dolphins: thats so gay
scuba dive: yes
Go rock climbing: yes
Change your religion: I'm always open-minded!
Turn your back on your friends for personal gain: NO!
Steal a friend's boyfriend/girlfriend: depends on the circumstances.. whatever i did i would always put my friend first, and their feelings
Lie to the police: about something small, yes, about something big, no
Run from the police: lmao
Walk up to a total stranger and kiss them: haha no
Fight someone you used to be really close with: well i dont even fight people i never liked, so no
HAVE YOU EVER
Flashed someone: no
Told the person you liked how you felt: yes
Gotten really REALLY wasted: no
Skateboarded: yes
Skinny dipped: no
Stolen anything from a store: no
Kissed someone of the same sex: no
Been to a concert: yes
Been to another country: yes
Talked back to an adult: yes
Given money to some homeless person: yes
Tried to kill yourself: no
Cried to get out of trouble: yes
Kissed a friend's brother/sister: no
THE LAST THING
You ate: chocolate chip pancakes
The last place you went: mall
Last thing you bought: a smoothie and 3 minutes at one of those massaging chairs in the mall
Last person you saw: mom
Last person you hugged: stephanie
Last song you heard: simple plan "perfect"
YES OR NO
Are you straight: yes
Are you short: no im tall
Do you own a hot pink shirt: no
Do you like Marilyn Manson: i explained this already. I kinda do, but i pretty much tolerate him.
Did you ever touch someone else's no-no spot: uh NO
Do you shop at Hot Topic: yes
Do you remember your dreams: I havent had a dream since i was liek 6
Can people read you like a book: no, unfortunately
Do you talk alot: when im around certain people
Are you afraid of clowns: no
Can you drive: yes, illegaly
Are you an only child: no, brother jared age 18
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| Things I Hate.. |
[30 Dec 2004|10:25pm] |
Evil/hurtful Pranks. When people wright things in their journals to make others pity them. Signing a comment/entry with When people steal poetry. Self-inflicted pain. WrItIng LiKe ThiS. Arguing over politics. Brain-freeze. Break-ups online or on the phone. Talking on AIM. Changing yourself to conform. One-night stands. Posers calling posers posers. Being "depressed" for attention. Lies. Over-used lyrics. Not giving a second chance. Obsessive against God. People that are not open-minded. Calling names. Putting others down to bring yourself up. Acting suicidal to worry your friends. Ignoring people instead of trying to work it out. Say your going to change but you don't. Change your identity around your friends. Talk behind your "friends" back. Break a promise. Let the ones who rely on you down. Showing scars.
Theres a lot more..
Edit:
Swam 3½ miles this morning! then I went to the mall today with Matt and Fred. It was great fun.
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| Goodbye 2004 |
[28 Dec 2004|12:01pm] |
Well, the year is coming to a close, and I have to say, this has most likely been the most dramatic, exciting, and fun year of my life so far. So many new things have happened to me, some good some bad. I'm going to take a journey, all the way back to December 2003, and recap my year as a whole. I don't believe many (if any) of you to read all of this, most likely because you don't care. But I do..
December 03- I had Drama and Careers as my connections, bummer. But one day at the walk-a-thon Cheryl (who was in my homeroom) introduced me to Christen, who happened to be in my careers class. We didn't talk much, but we would tlak online, and one day she gave my screen name to her best friend Jen. Me and Jen would talk online a lot. I had a party one time for the end of my basketball season, and Tyler and Matt were over. Jen and Christen decided to call me on three-way, and they did that a few more times afterward. I got my first electric guitar for christmas.
January 04- I got PE with Tyler and Matt, which was cool. I cut open my hand with an umbrella and had to wear this gay cast on it for a long time. About this time I decided I had a "thing" for Christen, but never though about taking it anywhere. I had a connections class with Garrick, and he was cool.
February 04- I went to see 50 First Dates with Jen and Christen. I was beginning to think they were going to be really good friends. Jen and Christen were both so nice, and funny! Then I asked Christen out. First person I ever asked out, even though it was online. I started saying "muffins" and "pie" a lot.
March 04- Went to see secret window with Jen Christen Tyler and a few other people. I was too scared to hold her hand though. Hah I was so shy. Hmm I remember Danielle and fred came in the middle of the movie. Oh and Jen was making out with this dude and it kinda freaked me out.. I was so sheltered..
April 04- I think around this tiem Matt began going out with Maggie, but that didnt last long. Tyler took me to one of those arena football games. It was fun. I Went to the mall with Jen and Christen. This was becoming a regular thing, and I loved having cool friends like them. When we were there, I dont know if I was being overly sensitive or just being ignored, but I wasn't having a good time. But then we went to Sam Goody and I saw a girl I recognized. She was the same girl yet very, very different. It was Kenzie from my homeroom in 7th grade! I met her and I liked her, but that was about it. She walked with us and I talked to her most of the night. She told me I looked alot different too, which was true, since I was a prep in 7th grade. I broke up with Christen the next day, and asked Kenzie out 3 days later. I was afraid Christen would think I broke up with her because I liked Kenzie, but that wasn't true. The actual reason was because it was going absolutely nowhere and I thought we both needed to move on. I really didnt mean for it to go like that, but I couldn't wait any longer.
May 04- This was a big month, with school ending and all. Me and Kenzie were goign great, and I was really liking her a LOT, but she was having some problems and had to leave for a while (a week to be exact). When she came back she was different. We didn't talk the same, and she took the I love Jake out of her profile. She dumped me online.. I cried. The next day was the 8th grade formal, and I still had my ticket, so I went, and danced with a few girls, the only one I really knew was Abby. (I kinda regret dancing with one of them because she still calls me all the time and I don't like her at all). So I was pretty depressed for a while, and I was really emo. I remember being pissed because yearbook signing had been split up from inside and outside. I talked to Kenzie at yearbook signing, and we became friends. Yet, I didn't completely get over her.. Danielle dumped Fred the last day of school, and I took Fred's side. After that we talked over the summer, but that friendship never went anywhere because he went to dacula.
June 04- My birthday! I had a surprise party, and it was awesome. Me and tyler went to a GT basketball camp, which was pretty fun. Me and Matt saw the Harry Potter movie, and I bought the AFI cd. Went to the mall with Geoffrey and met Danielle there, and Kenzie saw me in Hot Topic and Practically ran over Christen and Jen to hug me! Then we hung out with her some more and saw Anchorman. Later that month Jen and Danielle both told me they liked me, (not at the same time but close). It made me feel loved, but I just wanted to be friends with them.
July 04- Me and Matt went to a UGA basketball camp. I didnt like it. The peopel there acted like I was horrible at basketball. I went to see the notebook with Jen and Christen, this was the last movie we saw together. It was okay, but Jen cried! Then I went to church camp which was okay. It was in Ft. Walton Florida. I was in a room with Tyler Charlie and Chris, and that was okay, except they played a trick on me pretending they lost the key one time, and the counselor knew about the trick and pretended to yell at me because it was my responsibility to hold the key. Everyone was in the trick and when they finally told me, I was so upset I ran out to the beach and almost missed a service because I was crying. Later that month, I started talking to Kenzie a lot. We started to go to wednesday nioght church together, but the only reason I went was to see her. We met this girl named Destyni, and her friend Tiffany (Sipin). Destyni seemed to develope a little crush on matt. Anyway, one night Kenzie told me she liked me over IM. Being in mind that I was going to ask her out again, I called her and talke dot her for 3 or four hours without even bringing it up. Then she told me she had to leave soon, so I finally brought it up. By then she had changed her mind for some reason and decided that she "didnt want to hurt me or break my heart again". I was devastated, but my friend Stephanie was there to cheer me up. For some strange reason, however, I still really liked Kenzie.
August 04- I went on a cruise with Tyler which was probably the best cruise I have been on yet becuase I had a good friend there. I lost my cell phone though. Sucks because this was one of the last things I did with tyler, and he goes to Dacula High now. Uh well there was about a week before school started at that time, and one time I went to church with Kenzie. She also invited this guy she "liked" to go. Well I was pretty pissed about that, being that I still liked her and all. After church I pretty much just walked out and left. She went after me and was kinda like "whats your problem?" even though she already knew. We yelled at eachother a bit. That was a very depressing day for me.
September 04- School started. First day of high school as freshman. I saw Kenzie at Registration and walked away, and Jen made a big deal about it. Um I got my schedule and I switched to AP. I started a carpool with Heather Gieseking. She was really nice, but later that year I would get to know her other side. Well me and Kenzie "made up" I dont remember if it was spoken, or if it just kinda happened, but we were talking again. It would be a while before we were actual friends again though. I had first lunch, but then I got switched to 4th, which I liked better because I had it with Matt. Matt was going out with Destyni at the time. She was kinda slutty, and secretly I wanted them to break up. I met some cool people the first week, like rachael and garrick (who I knew in 8th grade). I met Rachael and I thought she was pretty but when I got to know her I found out she was cool too.
October 04- I went to the lake with Rachael, still the only thing we have ever done outside of school together. We went to some football games together too. Then she asked me to homecoming. I was actually planning on asking her that day with was weird, because before I had planned not to go. When we went it was really fun. But Jen was getting really pissed at me for a some reason, and I didn't find out until later it was because she liked me. After homecoming, I really wanted to ask Rachael out. Everyday I would sit in math and think about her. I was so shy, and I would beat myself up about it a lot. Then one day she told me she had been asked out. I was kinda upset about that, and thats when I started writing poems a lot. Soon I forgot about it and moved on. Me and Matt and Kenzie went to a Dacula Football game one time. That marked the point where we were good friends again. Matt went out with Danielle which didn't work too well. They broke up.
November 04- Matt and Danielle got back together, and by now I have been on swimteam for a week or two. I didn't like it at first, but I made some cool friends. I also have my first 2 meets this month. Bought the SP cd for Rachael, and other christmas presents. I met this girl named Mel a while back, and I never really got to know her. But I started talking to her in the media center after school, and I found out that she is really cool, and she is always herself. Of course, who can't like a girl like that? She was everything that I could want in a girl.. (Of course she didn't feel the same.) Well we started going out, and because of that Jen was very mad at me. Maybe she never wanted to talk to me again, but I would never let her sacrifice our friendship, so we talked it over. Anyway, during this month most everything I thought about was melissa-involved.
December 04- Mel broke up with me. Too bad. I have never had a girlfriend for christmas, and I thought I had finally gotten her the perfect gift. I already knew what she had for me. Well she hasn't talked to me since, even though I ate lunch with her. Jen ignored me for 3 days. I dont know why, and it doesnt matter. Matt started going out with christen. I gave Rachael the SP cd, but her friend had bought it for her the day before, bummer. Christmas came and Taylor and Geoffrey and Stephanie came over. I got one present, an iPod. It's awesome! Jen got strep. Me and Taylor went to see the worst movie ever, the aviator. Ugh it was horrible.
To matt: Your An awesome friend, and I have a feeling we're goign to be friends forever. No matter what I'm always a day older than you!
Rachael: It was awesome being in your class. I hope we can stay friends.
Jen: We get in little fights sometimes, but they dont mean anything. We are goign to stay friends no matter what happens. Your awesome!
Tyler: I wish we talked more, we havent talked in months, man. Hope to see you soon!
Geoffrey: We didnt talk for a long time, but I hope we can hang out some more.
Taylor: Your awesome and halarious! Or maybe its just my "weird sense of humor".
Stephanie: OMG your like my best friend. We will be friends forever, and I know it. Thanks for always being here for me!
Well thats its. If you made it down here, you're a true friend. I may miss 2004, but I know 2005 will be just as exciting! I can't wait!
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[24 Dec 2004|11:24pm] |
MERRY CHRISTXMAS EVERYONE!
Sorry I had to be politically correct.
By the way, I'm home. The trip wasn't taht great. Full of tears, and my mother and aunt screaming at eachother as if they were still little kids. If anyone wants to hear the whole story, I might type it out later, but right now I'm too tired. Gnight.
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[21 Dec 2004|12:41pm] |
Yeah I have to go to visit family down in Savannah then to Vidalia then to South Carolina. So I wont be home intil Christmas eve night. I'll mis you all and I'll talk to y'all on christmas!
Muchos Luvos,
JAKE
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